Were to start.....

I am very much aware that it has been like a year since I last posted, not that it matters as I don't think anyone even checks my blog anyway :S think I'm more using it as a diary than anything else as no one I know actually follows it.

Any way, since the last time, as you know I moved in to my new house and I was pregnant, well that was last year, I now have another beautiful bouncing baby boy, Harry, thankfully he has not had any health issues like Charlie did, he is such a happy little man, born October the 12th 2012 at half past 11pm weighing 8lb 7oz, he was delivered with the aid of forceps, I had no drugs in my system by the time he was coming, the midwife didn't have time to give me the epidural I wanted so I had to make do.

Charlie is wonderful, he is 2 years old now, I am applying for him to start nursery as he needs to socialize with other children his own age, he is a wonderful big brother, we have only had a couple of incidents with Charlie hurting Harry, nothing major just Charlie not been careful enough.

I don't know if I have ever pointed out in previous posts but it has come to my attention and it is something I care to share, I met Joel on Friday 19th June 2009, I had Charlie on Friday 3rd September 2010 and Harry came on Friday 12th October 2012. I now call my boys my 3 Fridays. I find it very bizarre that Friday seems to be my lucky day, especially when I think about the fact that Charlie was 8 days late and Harry 3 days early, it feels like fate had this one dealt for me.

Joel and I are planning to get married 10th of June 2015, we naturally picked this date as we wanted to mark the day as our lucky day, so the 10th of June 2015 is....... you guessed it........ a Friday. I can not wait to finally marry Joel though I am a little apprehensive at becoming "Mrs Grainger".

I have had more downs than I have had ups these last few weeks, it all started when I found out (not for the first time) that my own sister had been saying things about me and my boys behind my back, I am so sick of people talking behind my back, I mean get real, if you have a problem with me then tell me, don't spread crap  because that just makes you a 2 faced back stabber!! Anyway she had told someone that I do not bath my boys, as when she puts them in the bath they scream and create, it might not seem bad to a lot of you but that to me was down right horrible, not to mention a lie, naturally this someone informed me that this had been said, so I confronted my sister, a massive blazing row occurred over the whole event and I ended up saying some things that probably shouldn't have been said, I am not going in to what I said to her as I said it in the heat of an argument, know that what I said was rather harsh but not as harsh as what she did to me, you see my logic is this, Shelley went spreading lies to other people behind my back, now if this person that told me had phoned social services instead of saying something to me then I would have been monitored by the social workers, I have nothing to hide so that wouldn't bother me, what bothers me is that my own sister could have been the cause and personally there is no going back from that, even though I should not have said false accusations to my sister, I take comfort in the fact that I said them to HER not other people, the problem is, she took it COMPLETELY the wrong way (as blonds do) and twisted it to make me out to be a right evil bitch, I know for FACT that she was telling people that I had said this Extremely horrible thing that I would never ever ever say and going on about all the things I had said (even things I hadn't said which she had pulled out of thin air) but not once did she tell any of them what she had done to me.

I had her best friend send me emails bitching and having a go at me when she only had one side of the story, she was not interested in anything I said, she just wanted to insult me despite that what she thought was true wasn't! My mum, bless her, stayed neutral through the whole thing, she never took sides, she kind of did make it about her self by telling us that we are depressing her further by not talking to one and other but I was not going to say sorry for Shelley spreading untrue stories and lies and twisting things to make her sound the victim in the whole incident, I am not even going to sit here and let people think I am a victim, yes I was wronged but I also was in the wrong by saying certain things that shouldn't have been said, even if they are true its not my place to interfere, the fact that Shelley took things completely the wrong way by what I said is not my fault, I tried really hard to explain to her that what she THOUGHT I said was not what I said and I certainly did not intend on her taking things that way but I gave her the shot gun didn't I, because she took what I said the wrong way she had everyone eating out the palms of her hands!

This incident made Shelley delete me as a friend on Facebook, she declined my wedding invite, my Ann Summers invite and Joel's 30th birthday invite, she also removed Joel as a friend on Facebook too!

Because she had done this to me, I told her to plan her own baby shower, why in gods green earth should I do something for someone like that, I mean I was giving up my home, I would have been left with all the cleaning, the planning, the shopping and the decorating why should I, so in return she cancelled the shower as I had created it originally and could not be removed and she recreated it without inviting me. (By the way Shelley is pregnant with twin boys)

Eventually, slowly, we started talking again, both avoiding talking about the fall out, but still I got no invite to the baby shower, I don't know if I can trust her any more, as I stated earlier this one was not the first time she had spread crap behind my back, I may not be a perfect mum but I am a bloody good one, I do everything I can for my boys and more, I could not do any better if I tried.

Oh bloody hell, as usual when I get on here time flies away with me its going on 5am so I best be off to bed. will finish of my story telling tomorrow evening, not that it matters as I said in the beginning, its not like I have people sat there biting their nails waiting to see what I write. LOL.

Night Night Bloggers.x