I often find my self having too much time on my hands, I therefore end up having random thoughts occur in my mind.
Take today for instance, this afternoon I was wondering aloud to Joel about what happens to bees and wasps in the winter seasons, I for one do not think they die during the winter due to having a huge chuffing beast of a wasp in the house just a few days ago, were as Joel thinks they die and only the queen bee / wasp lives through?
Also I was just stood out side having a cig and watching the sky (while noting that it was half past 4pm and I had seen 2 stars in the sky) the clouds are moving perticularyly fast and having remembering a previous statement made by Joel about how fast the Earth moves it occured to me that we are basically on a huge roundabout! It supprises me that we dunt all have mass dizzy spells, the kind you get when you do actually go on a round about and you go that fast that you feel light headed, sick, dizzy or what ever. I wonder why that is?
I have recently been extreamly curious about our universe, what is out there? how far does it expand? What is going on past our Ozone Layer?
It has been noted that there are other planets out side our Ozone, I read an article online recently that there is thought to be another Earth out there with a sun close by like ours and if this is actually the case then in theory there is living people on the planet and living things just like we have.
I feel a little disappointed that if this article is correct and they do find out that there is actually another planet just like ours, that we are never ever gunna know what actually lives there and if there is people on that planet like us we are never actually going to be able to meet them. All this of course is due t how many million light years away this planet is!
Well this was actually ment to be a quick short post that got me rambling too much so I do apologise lol, if anyone else has any weird and wonderful thoughts of the day they would like to share please comment below as I would love to know what other people think about.x
God Bless All.x
Thursday, 19 January 2012
Ain't Life Grand....
For the last 2 weeks Joel, Charlie and I have been stopping at Joel's dad's house "cat sitting" it has been lovely to get time to our self's again though not in our own home, I have enjoyed the peice and normality of life with just my little family.
Joel and I took Charlie to Eureka on the 12th January, I think it was more for mine and Joels benefit more than Charlie's, saying that Charlie had a lovely time, he was able to run around and touch what ever he wanted, he loved the freedom of the day out. I didnt want to miss a moment of logging memories of Charlie so I had my camera at hand and was snapping away like a mad woman, I even got Joel to take a few pictures of me stood with Charlie. Below are a few of the good Pictures that we took on our family day out.......
Charlie looking JUST like his daddy!!^^^^^^^^^^
Mummy and Charlie, Sorry I look a bit weird in this one as trying to get Charlie to Laugh or at least smile lol.x ^^^^^^^^^^^^
Charlie got a bit fed up of climbing up the tounge (yes I mean the kind in your mouth lol) so he decided to lay down and lick it instead.x ^^^^^^^
Daddy and Charlie pretending they are DJ's controlling the lighting on the dance floor!^^^^^^^^^^^^
Charlie did not want to entertain me at all, he just wanted to play. ^^^^^^^^.
It was a fantastic day out though I did get annoyed at Joel for going off on his own all the time to play with the things available in Eureka and leaving me to tend to Charlie who would not do as he was told!
Other than that though I def can not wait to go back, that way I might actually get a look in to what is actually available lol.x
Thats all for now.x
Joel and I took Charlie to Eureka on the 12th January, I think it was more for mine and Joels benefit more than Charlie's, saying that Charlie had a lovely time, he was able to run around and touch what ever he wanted, he loved the freedom of the day out. I didnt want to miss a moment of logging memories of Charlie so I had my camera at hand and was snapping away like a mad woman, I even got Joel to take a few pictures of me stood with Charlie. Below are a few of the good Pictures that we took on our family day out.......
It was a fantastic day out though I did get annoyed at Joel for going off on his own all the time to play with the things available in Eureka and leaving me to tend to Charlie who would not do as he was told!
Other than that though I def can not wait to go back, that way I might actually get a look in to what is actually available lol.x
Thats all for now.x
Monday, 16 January 2012
To Much Thinking......
I have been sat thinking about my poor boy who was so ill at Christmas 2010, he was 3 months old, I feel so guilty in the fact he was soo poorly, I was adamant that I was not going to be one of them mums that took their children to the doctors over every tiny bit of something wrong and because I didnt it resulted in my son spending 3 weeks in hospital because he was so poorly.
We nearly lost him twice while he was ill, his Oxygen levels were dramatically low and he was loosing weight.
It started on the 12th December 2010 we realised he was starting to go a funny kind of grey colour, so we took him in to hospital, they kept him in over night for obsivation but let us go first thing on the 13th of December.
He got worse during the day, constantly throwing up and struggling to breath, he was always sleeping and not moving a right lot so come the evening of the 13th we took him back in to hospital, there we stayed for the nect 2 weeks, spending our first Christmas as a family together by his hospital crib.
Looking back it was not a bad day even tho my poor boo was ill, he has suffered 2 types of Bhronchalitis (spell check here lol) the first was not contagious but the second was, he eventually and slowly started getting better, eating without throwing up, it was a long process but we got there in the end.
All the nurses knew us by sight and name (even to this day they do) as we had spent so much time on ward 17 me been 3 weeks away from my due date to this very day we are well known on the ward. As we were spending Christmas in hospital I decided to make the best out of a not so good thing and decorated our room with Xmas decorations and got a mini Xmas tree, we put the tree on the table and put all the pressies under the tree, turned out to be a fantastic Xmas in the end, especially when I found out that the nurse's had been bragging to all the other nurses about how Christmassy it was in our room and everyone kept popping in to have a nosey, which was fantastic because been stuck in a hospitla room for 2 weeks is very lonely and boring.
Any ways on the 27th December we got let out of hospital which worked out fantastic as it was my Neice's 1st Birthday so I went up to see her, Left Joel at home with Charlie as he still was a fair bit poorly and was not really a good idea to be dragging him out in the cold.
Any ways this story aint finished with a happy ending yet as on the 2nd of January 2011 we were back in hospital with our little one again as things were not improving and his special milk he was put on was not staying down, so the hospital did yet more tests on him, this time he has (of all things) Swine Flu, this point he was 4 month old (birthdate is 3rd September) so we was in hospital for another week while he started to recover from that with all his medications. I felt and still feel really guilty, if I had reacted faster in the begining of his Illnesses none of this would have happend, If he had died I dun't think I could have lived with my self, I feel like I let him down by not taking care of him and all I could do was cry all the time.
Charlie still suffers with Bhronchalitis (spell check here lol) but now he is a happy 16 month old boy (most of the time) he is so easy going and will sit on the floor for ages looking through his books, he took some time to catch up with other babies his age in his development but now (aside from his chesty breathing) to look at him you would never know he was really poorly. He has attended over night trips a couple of times during this last year due to his breathing but nothing majour has come from it, thank the lord.
This is Charlie now, this picture was taken at Eureka in Halifax on the 12th January 2012. My happy 16 month old boy.x I could not be prouder of my little fighter.x
We nearly lost him twice while he was ill, his Oxygen levels were dramatically low and he was loosing weight.
It started on the 12th December 2010 we realised he was starting to go a funny kind of grey colour, so we took him in to hospital, they kept him in over night for obsivation but let us go first thing on the 13th of December.
He got worse during the day, constantly throwing up and struggling to breath, he was always sleeping and not moving a right lot so come the evening of the 13th we took him back in to hospital, there we stayed for the nect 2 weeks, spending our first Christmas as a family together by his hospital crib.
Looking back it was not a bad day even tho my poor boo was ill, he has suffered 2 types of Bhronchalitis (spell check here lol) the first was not contagious but the second was, he eventually and slowly started getting better, eating without throwing up, it was a long process but we got there in the end.
All the nurses knew us by sight and name (even to this day they do) as we had spent so much time on ward 17 me been 3 weeks away from my due date to this very day we are well known on the ward. As we were spending Christmas in hospital I decided to make the best out of a not so good thing and decorated our room with Xmas decorations and got a mini Xmas tree, we put the tree on the table and put all the pressies under the tree, turned out to be a fantastic Xmas in the end, especially when I found out that the nurse's had been bragging to all the other nurses about how Christmassy it was in our room and everyone kept popping in to have a nosey, which was fantastic because been stuck in a hospitla room for 2 weeks is very lonely and boring.
Any ways on the 27th December we got let out of hospital which worked out fantastic as it was my Neice's 1st Birthday so I went up to see her, Left Joel at home with Charlie as he still was a fair bit poorly and was not really a good idea to be dragging him out in the cold.
Any ways this story aint finished with a happy ending yet as on the 2nd of January 2011 we were back in hospital with our little one again as things were not improving and his special milk he was put on was not staying down, so the hospital did yet more tests on him, this time he has (of all things) Swine Flu, this point he was 4 month old (birthdate is 3rd September) so we was in hospital for another week while he started to recover from that with all his medications. I felt and still feel really guilty, if I had reacted faster in the begining of his Illnesses none of this would have happend, If he had died I dun't think I could have lived with my self, I feel like I let him down by not taking care of him and all I could do was cry all the time.
Charlie still suffers with Bhronchalitis (spell check here lol) but now he is a happy 16 month old boy (most of the time) he is so easy going and will sit on the floor for ages looking through his books, he took some time to catch up with other babies his age in his development but now (aside from his chesty breathing) to look at him you would never know he was really poorly. He has attended over night trips a couple of times during this last year due to his breathing but nothing majour has come from it, thank the lord.
Wednesday, 4 January 2012
So much excitement......
First of I would like to start by saying all you lovely people that look at my blog, please feel free to follow me, I'm looking a little sad with just 1 follower at the minute and it's even sadder that it is my partner that is my only follower hahaha.x
I'm really excited bout this year because a few good things are going to be happening, first of a really good friend of mine is a) having a baby, which is due the 1st of June, so excited to meet him or her and b) she is moving back up to our home town, this bit I love the most because it means now that I wont have to fight her whole family anymore for me to get to see her on her very rare visits as now she gunna be here for good WHOOOOOP.
Secondly, A wonderful young woman i met on the interent almost 9 years ago is taking the plunge and coming all the way from Canada to come meet me face to face, she will be staying with me and my partner in our home (that we shud have by the time she gets here) and she is staying for 2 to 3 weeks so im really excited about having her come stay, it been a long time coming as this perticular young lady help me realise that there are good people in this world, she helped me get through some really tough times and she has stuck by me through every second of every emotion I have had.
Thirdly (this one if for you Fran) Joel and I have decided we are going to try for another baby so Charlie can have a little brother or sister, (I personnally hope a sister lol) but we will see, I stated this one is for Fran (Joel's sister) because she is extreamly eager for Joel and I to have lots of babies, Fran is a lovely yet highly crazy woman bahahahahaha (sorry Fran) but no one can ever doubt how much she loves and cares for her family ESPECIALLY Charlie. If we do have a little girl we decided in Memory of Barbara Mary Grainger we are going to use Mary as a middle name for our little girl, this was my very own choice and when I spoke to Joel about it he was over the moon that I chose to use the name.x
Last but certinally never the least, My wonderful sister Shelley announced that she too with her partner Ryan are going to be trying for a baby so its all babies in the air round here hahahaha but im so excited as if we conceive close together it will be magical and so beautiful, I love my sister so much, she deserves a lot of happyness.x
Any ways I think I'll leave you with that for now as im shattered and it is 4am in the morning lol (my sleeping habbits have never gotten any better) hahahaha, Good night God bless.x
I'm really excited bout this year because a few good things are going to be happening, first of a really good friend of mine is a) having a baby, which is due the 1st of June, so excited to meet him or her and b) she is moving back up to our home town, this bit I love the most because it means now that I wont have to fight her whole family anymore for me to get to see her on her very rare visits as now she gunna be here for good WHOOOOOP.
Secondly, A wonderful young woman i met on the interent almost 9 years ago is taking the plunge and coming all the way from Canada to come meet me face to face, she will be staying with me and my partner in our home (that we shud have by the time she gets here) and she is staying for 2 to 3 weeks so im really excited about having her come stay, it been a long time coming as this perticular young lady help me realise that there are good people in this world, she helped me get through some really tough times and she has stuck by me through every second of every emotion I have had.
Thirdly (this one if for you Fran) Joel and I have decided we are going to try for another baby so Charlie can have a little brother or sister, (I personnally hope a sister lol) but we will see, I stated this one is for Fran (Joel's sister) because she is extreamly eager for Joel and I to have lots of babies, Fran is a lovely yet highly crazy woman bahahahahaha (sorry Fran) but no one can ever doubt how much she loves and cares for her family ESPECIALLY Charlie. If we do have a little girl we decided in Memory of Barbara Mary Grainger we are going to use Mary as a middle name for our little girl, this was my very own choice and when I spoke to Joel about it he was over the moon that I chose to use the name.x
Last but certinally never the least, My wonderful sister Shelley announced that she too with her partner Ryan are going to be trying for a baby so its all babies in the air round here hahahaha but im so excited as if we conceive close together it will be magical and so beautiful, I love my sister so much, she deserves a lot of happyness.x
Any ways I think I'll leave you with that for now as im shattered and it is 4am in the morning lol (my sleeping habbits have never gotten any better) hahahaha, Good night God bless.x
Poem I Wrote Joel.x
I've been touched with hands that tore my flesh,
Have been made to feel that I am trash;
I've been trod upon as if a useless rug,
And never felt the warmth of an honest hug.
Alone in my bed I've quivered, not from cold but fear.
Everywhere I went I saw their disgusting sneers;
I tried to fight, I tried to win, but always I failed,
And found myself with beasts being laid.
I've granted love, but been given hate,
At nights I've said to be "great."
I have knelt and prayed, but bootless were my cries,
It seemed that not even God could clear my eyes.
You came into my life and held my hand;
You taught me how on my feet I could stand.
You loved and never asked of the past or of now;
You simply cared and I don't know how.
You changed me, you gave me love,
You made my heart as pure as a dove.
You made me hang on, no matter what;
You've taught me to face the cold and the hot.
Have been made to feel that I am trash;
I've been trod upon as if a useless rug,
And never felt the warmth of an honest hug.
Alone in my bed I've quivered, not from cold but fear.
Everywhere I went I saw their disgusting sneers;
I tried to fight, I tried to win, but always I failed,
And found myself with beasts being laid.
I've granted love, but been given hate,
At nights I've said to be "great."
I have knelt and prayed, but bootless were my cries,
It seemed that not even God could clear my eyes.
You came into my life and held my hand;
You taught me how on my feet I could stand.
You loved and never asked of the past or of now;
You simply cared and I don't know how.
You changed me, you gave me love,
You made my heart as pure as a dove.
You made me hang on, no matter what;
You've taught me to face the cold and the hot.
You saw in me not darkness but light;
You taught me how to win the fatal fight.
I love you as no woman has ever loved.
You taught me how to win the fatal fight.
I love you as no woman has ever loved.
Poem I Wrote for a very good friend of mine.x
I know I promised a poem I wrote for Joel but I thought I would share this one first, I wrote this for my riend just after we got back in contact with each other, we were best friends from being babies and lost touch after my mum moved us away and now we are friends again and I am so glad we have found each other.x
Hope you all like it.x
As childhood friends, we grew up together,
Swearing to be friends forever and ever.
Sometimes we would argue and fight,
Other times we would laugh and stay up till late at night.
We went from playing with games and toys,
To talking and dreaming about different boys.
My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide,
Never having anything to hide.
We fell apart along the way,
I always thought you were here to stay.
Life went on, and I grew strong
But everything was all wrong.
Friends we will always remain,
Things changing, and things staying the same.
About each other, we will always care,
As we start talking through the air.
I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you
Friends forever once again,
I hope this time nothing will change.
You are a person I will treasure,
Always and Forever and ever!
Swearing to be friends forever and ever.
Sometimes we would argue and fight,
Other times we would laugh and stay up till late at night.
We went from playing with games and toys,
To talking and dreaming about different boys.
My thoughts and feelings, to you I would confide,
Never having anything to hide.
We fell apart along the way,
I always thought you were here to stay.
Life went on, and I grew strong
But everything was all wrong.
Friends we will always remain,
Things changing, and things staying the same.
About each other, we will always care,
As we start talking through the air.
I know your life is hectic
You are busy all day through
My life is busy also
But I still think of you
Friends forever once again,
I hope this time nothing will change.
You are a person I will treasure,
Always and Forever and ever!
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