Been pregnant has really taken it toll on me. I am always tired and these last few days have been a nightmare of sickness and tiredness. I cant be bothered getting up and doing anything I just want to lay on the sofa all day watching my mum play on the x box.
Things are just going to get worse as me and Joel finially have our own home. we will be moving in this weekend coming and I am excited but dredding having to get up and move about. If this sickness dunt stop then im in big trouble haha!
Cant be bothered writing owt else as my hands a numb with how cold I am. I hate been cold.x so untill I'm on line in my new home I will leave the internet well alone!!! take care all.x
Wednesday, 17 February 2010
Sunday, 7 February 2010
Been Pregnant!
Things have been rather mentle since finding out I am pregnant. I constantly feel ill and tired, my body is swelling horribly! I have been having a really emotional rollercoaster of a ride with the whole thing and felt like I'm going threw it on my own. Joel says he cares and I know he does but once in a while I could do with him showing it.
I have my first scan tomorrow, I'll know for def how far along I am and a near to exact date for my babys birth. I am really nervous but excited too, I hope my baby is healthy and growing right.
I am making this a short one today as I do not have much to say, so ill keep you all up to date with everything.x
I have my first scan tomorrow, I'll know for def how far along I am and a near to exact date for my babys birth. I am really nervous but excited too, I hope my baby is healthy and growing right.
I am making this a short one today as I do not have much to say, so ill keep you all up to date with everything.x
Friday, 1 January 2010
OMG!
Things have been rather eventful this Christmas and New Year, It all started on the 20th December, it was an ordinary Sunday, Joel and I had been stopping at my mate Claire's for the weekend, we was just getting ready to leave, I needed the loo so off I went and took my handbag with me, I took my handbag because it had my pregnancy test in it, so I took the test and well it came back positive, I was in shock! I shouted Claire up the stairs and I showed her the test and we cuddled and giggled and what not.
When I got down stairs Claire's dad Chris asked me if I was having an affair with Claire Hahahaha so I said yes, I sat on the sofa next to Joel and typed on my phone "took the test, I'm pregnant" well the spark in his eye told me everything, we got our gear together quick and left, soon as we shut the door Joel pulled me in to his arms. Bless him he is rather a soppy bugger at heart lol. He did have the cheek later on to call me heartless just because I didn't cry! ho hummm! any ways we went round select few and told them our news, mostly everyone was happy for us and we swelled with pride that we are becoming parents.
When it cam to telling Joel's dad, I made Joel tell him and he was sooo scared, which made me scared, but all turned out fantastic, Joel, unfortunately, didn't take it like a man but that is all I'm saying hahahaha! his dad however is happy, and also excited about becoming a grandad.
I have seen the midwife and have been told that Baby Grainger is due August 2010. so we have a long time to go but as we have a lot of things to sort out I'm sure everything will pass over real quick.x
Unfortunately been pregnant at Xmas is a nightmare when your a smoker and love a few glasses of wine, as I could not do either! I have been an emotional wreck through the whole thing and even come close to falling out with Joel, poor bloke really does take a lot of stick from me!
Also my boobs are horrible! they are a nice size before pregnancy kicks in now they are chuffing huge and I'm only 8 weeks pregnant, I dread to think how big they will be by the time I give birth, they are also really sore. I am currently also suffering with period like cramps at the sides of my tummy, I have been told this is normal for some women so I should not worry too much.
I have been able to do plenty of reading up on the week by week stages of pregnancy and how the baby is growing week by week too. Unfortunately it has severely put me off from wanting to go in to labour, so Joel my love, thanks for the wonderful baby book you got me for Xmas, now I don't want kids!!!!!!!! lol. I have to go threw with this pregnancy as I personally do not agree at all with abortions, it is murder in my eyes and I could not do that to my baby!
Any ways I have finished my hot chocolate that Joel kindly made for me so I am now gonna catch up on some beauty sleep if I am able to get cosy enough to do so.x Here's to a wonderful new year everyone! wish you all a wonderful time and all the best!
When I got down stairs Claire's dad Chris asked me if I was having an affair with Claire Hahahaha so I said yes, I sat on the sofa next to Joel and typed on my phone "took the test, I'm pregnant" well the spark in his eye told me everything, we got our gear together quick and left, soon as we shut the door Joel pulled me in to his arms. Bless him he is rather a soppy bugger at heart lol. He did have the cheek later on to call me heartless just because I didn't cry! ho hummm! any ways we went round select few and told them our news, mostly everyone was happy for us and we swelled with pride that we are becoming parents.
When it cam to telling Joel's dad, I made Joel tell him and he was sooo scared, which made me scared, but all turned out fantastic, Joel, unfortunately, didn't take it like a man but that is all I'm saying hahahaha! his dad however is happy, and also excited about becoming a grandad.
I have seen the midwife and have been told that Baby Grainger is due August 2010. so we have a long time to go but as we have a lot of things to sort out I'm sure everything will pass over real quick.x
Unfortunately been pregnant at Xmas is a nightmare when your a smoker and love a few glasses of wine, as I could not do either! I have been an emotional wreck through the whole thing and even come close to falling out with Joel, poor bloke really does take a lot of stick from me!
Also my boobs are horrible! they are a nice size before pregnancy kicks in now they are chuffing huge and I'm only 8 weeks pregnant, I dread to think how big they will be by the time I give birth, they are also really sore. I am currently also suffering with period like cramps at the sides of my tummy, I have been told this is normal for some women so I should not worry too much.
I have been able to do plenty of reading up on the week by week stages of pregnancy and how the baby is growing week by week too. Unfortunately it has severely put me off from wanting to go in to labour, so Joel my love, thanks for the wonderful baby book you got me for Xmas, now I don't want kids!!!!!!!! lol. I have to go threw with this pregnancy as I personally do not agree at all with abortions, it is murder in my eyes and I could not do that to my baby!
Any ways I have finished my hot chocolate that Joel kindly made for me so I am now gonna catch up on some beauty sleep if I am able to get cosy enough to do so.x Here's to a wonderful new year everyone! wish you all a wonderful time and all the best!
Tuesday, 1 December 2009
Coming or going......
Some times I wonder were life will lead me, I know things in life are changing for the better but one thing I hate doing is waiting, and as things stand at the minute all I do is wait. My sleeping has gone way down hill again and I'm not waking up till mid afternoon, it drives Joel crazy as he has work in the mornings and I'm just a pest all the time keeping him awake.
The nightmares I often have now adays are whats waking me up 4 or 5 times a night. I really should see my doctor about it but I hate having to go to her about such trivial things.
Personally I hate going to the doctors any way so instead I have taken up baking in hopes that it will fill in some gaps on a daily basis, so far no such luck.
My weekends are the best as me and Joel go up to my mates house for the weekend. We have a fairly good time and get to watch some great films and have a few drinks.
Well as its nearly 10 to 4 in the morning I'm going to leave this short and sweet and go see if i can get in to bed without waking Joel up.
Take care all.xx
The nightmares I often have now adays are whats waking me up 4 or 5 times a night. I really should see my doctor about it but I hate having to go to her about such trivial things.
Personally I hate going to the doctors any way so instead I have taken up baking in hopes that it will fill in some gaps on a daily basis, so far no such luck.
My weekends are the best as me and Joel go up to my mates house for the weekend. We have a fairly good time and get to watch some great films and have a few drinks.
Well as its nearly 10 to 4 in the morning I'm going to leave this short and sweet and go see if i can get in to bed without waking Joel up.
Take care all.xx
Tuesday, 17 November 2009
Proposal.....
Things have been a bit hectic since I last left a note. I can't tell you in order how things have happened as I'm stupid and do not remember things very well ha ha!
Some things have not been so great, like one Saturday I had an awful day, I had fun in 2 ways and they were that I met Lyndsey for the 1st time and i got to go shopping, but everything else was a disaster.
I was in Asda with my mate and her dad, we were buying booze for a night in, and some one spat over the banister right on to my head, I was absolutely fuming mad!
It was also raining that day so my beautiful curls I had through my hair washed out and I looked like I had been dragged through a hedge backwards, I pride my self highly on how I look and I was not looking good at all this day!
Later that night after I had my fave meal, spag bol, I started getting some serious pains in my tummy, I am used to pain in my tummy as I always seem to have a problem with it, but this was so much worse, as time wore on the pain got worse and worse and I ended up laying on my back on the floor with my feet near my bum, I was wearing a dress so my fiancee covered me with a quilt. eventually the pain got too much to cope with and I started crying, Joel then realised that this was serious and he phoned for an ambulance as I literally could not move, when the paramedics came they gave me gas and air so they could move me to the ambulance, all the drama of this day was wearing me thin and i thought "god can this day get any worse", any way we got to the hospital and they did some tests on me and luckily I was OK, I had a water infection nearing my kidneys hence all the pain, they put me on antibiotics and sent me off home.
As I was staying at my mates house this night we headed back there, I then had my other mate having a flipping fit because no one wanted to drink with her, I could not as I had to take my antibiotics right away but she made me not take it and made me drink so I did as she wanted.
At around 3 in the morning my mates wondered down to the spar to get some wine for me to drink and Katie who was paying for it did not get lemonade to go with it. I was not too happy as I can not drink wine straight.
So Katie then started having a fit with me because she had spent "so much money" on me, (no offence as I am grateful for her buying the wine for me but it only cost her 10 quid for 2 bottles!), she was f'ing and blinding all over the place and i was really upset, She thought I was asleep while she did all this shouting her mouth off but I was curled up to Joel biting my own tongue so hard so I didn't say anything back to her! eventually she buggered of to bed and I had my moaning session to everyone about her attitude!
On to a more happier note I have had a couple of excellent things happen for me,
The first excellent thing that has happened is my wonderful partner proposed to me. I personally would not change the way he did it as it was not romantic at all, not like the dream proposal that every woman wants. He got down on one knee in the K2 night club and whispered in my ear asking me to marry him, I obviously said yes!
The second fantastic thing is that my half sister Lyndsey found us through face book and I got the chance too meet up with her after 13 years of not seeing her. She is a fantastic young woman now and I am over the moon that I have her in my life!
Joel and me have tickets curtsy of his sister Fran, she gave us both these for our birthdays, they are tickets to the Alhambra to see Joseph and the Technicolour dream coat, we are heading to see that this Friday. I am excited about that as before we go there Joel is taking me out for a meal, which will be really lovely. Also this Friday the 2nd Twilight film comes out so we are heading to see that next week which is another thing I can't wait to do hehehehe!
Life is so busy yet so good that I feel like I am on top of the world every now and then. I still go through depression, it hits like a brick and I take it out on Joel so much but hopefully things will start getting to wear I want them to be.x
Some things have not been so great, like one Saturday I had an awful day, I had fun in 2 ways and they were that I met Lyndsey for the 1st time and i got to go shopping, but everything else was a disaster.
I was in Asda with my mate and her dad, we were buying booze for a night in, and some one spat over the banister right on to my head, I was absolutely fuming mad!
It was also raining that day so my beautiful curls I had through my hair washed out and I looked like I had been dragged through a hedge backwards, I pride my self highly on how I look and I was not looking good at all this day!
Later that night after I had my fave meal, spag bol, I started getting some serious pains in my tummy, I am used to pain in my tummy as I always seem to have a problem with it, but this was so much worse, as time wore on the pain got worse and worse and I ended up laying on my back on the floor with my feet near my bum, I was wearing a dress so my fiancee covered me with a quilt. eventually the pain got too much to cope with and I started crying, Joel then realised that this was serious and he phoned for an ambulance as I literally could not move, when the paramedics came they gave me gas and air so they could move me to the ambulance, all the drama of this day was wearing me thin and i thought "god can this day get any worse", any way we got to the hospital and they did some tests on me and luckily I was OK, I had a water infection nearing my kidneys hence all the pain, they put me on antibiotics and sent me off home.
As I was staying at my mates house this night we headed back there, I then had my other mate having a flipping fit because no one wanted to drink with her, I could not as I had to take my antibiotics right away but she made me not take it and made me drink so I did as she wanted.
At around 3 in the morning my mates wondered down to the spar to get some wine for me to drink and Katie who was paying for it did not get lemonade to go with it. I was not too happy as I can not drink wine straight.
So Katie then started having a fit with me because she had spent "so much money" on me, (no offence as I am grateful for her buying the wine for me but it only cost her 10 quid for 2 bottles!), she was f'ing and blinding all over the place and i was really upset, She thought I was asleep while she did all this shouting her mouth off but I was curled up to Joel biting my own tongue so hard so I didn't say anything back to her! eventually she buggered of to bed and I had my moaning session to everyone about her attitude!
On to a more happier note I have had a couple of excellent things happen for me,
The first excellent thing that has happened is my wonderful partner proposed to me. I personally would not change the way he did it as it was not romantic at all, not like the dream proposal that every woman wants. He got down on one knee in the K2 night club and whispered in my ear asking me to marry him, I obviously said yes!
The second fantastic thing is that my half sister Lyndsey found us through face book and I got the chance too meet up with her after 13 years of not seeing her. She is a fantastic young woman now and I am over the moon that I have her in my life!
Joel and me have tickets curtsy of his sister Fran, she gave us both these for our birthdays, they are tickets to the Alhambra to see Joseph and the Technicolour dream coat, we are heading to see that this Friday. I am excited about that as before we go there Joel is taking me out for a meal, which will be really lovely. Also this Friday the 2nd Twilight film comes out so we are heading to see that next week which is another thing I can't wait to do hehehehe!
Life is so busy yet so good that I feel like I am on top of the world every now and then. I still go through depression, it hits like a brick and I take it out on Joel so much but hopefully things will start getting to wear I want them to be.x
Sunday, 25 October 2009
More than an Uncle!
I wrote this poem for my Uncle John, after all the wonderful things he did for me, it's the least i can do!
To me your more than an uncle,
Your truly a great friend,
Someone I could pour my thoughts out to,
Knowing you'll cherish them till the end.
You've made me laugh,
When I wanted to cry,
You've made me stronger,
When I felt so weak I could die.
Whenever I am upset I know your
There with a shoulder to cry on,
Whenever I face a problem and needed some help,
I know your the one I can rely on.
You've always made me happy,
I hope you can truly see,
You're more than an uncle,
You're also a great friend to me!.
To me your more than an uncle,
Your truly a great friend,
Someone I could pour my thoughts out to,
Knowing you'll cherish them till the end.
You've made me laugh,
When I wanted to cry,
You've made me stronger,
When I felt so weak I could die.
Whenever I am upset I know your
There with a shoulder to cry on,
Whenever I face a problem and needed some help,
I know your the one I can rely on.
You've always made me happy,
I hope you can truly see,
You're more than an uncle,
You're also a great friend to me!.
One for you!
I have to mention in this blog all the hard work my wonderful Uncle John did for me through my tough times.
He was a great help to me through a lot of my depression.
He spoke to me about his difficulties in life and helped me come to terms with the horrid things in my life.
He is and always will be my bestest uncle friend.
I could not have gotten through more than half the things I had to cope with if it was not for him! This ones for you Uncle John! I LOVE YOU!!! and I'm sorry I forgot to mention you in my 1st entry! please forgive me.xx
He was a great help to me through a lot of my depression.
He spoke to me about his difficulties in life and helped me come to terms with the horrid things in my life.
He is and always will be my bestest uncle friend.
I could not have gotten through more than half the things I had to cope with if it was not for him! This ones for you Uncle John! I LOVE YOU!!! and I'm sorry I forgot to mention you in my 1st entry! please forgive me.xx
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